The Wolf Moon
It’s the first full moon of the year, AKA The Mf Wolf Moon, and I want to start this post off with a little plot twist okay so…
This past month, or since the first, I have not done anything Amway related because I didn’t want to waste anyone’s time since I was only planning on being a customer to my coach since him and his wife are nice people.
Even though I have been on the fence about it, they have supported me and made sure that I knew that regardless if we did business or not together, they cared about where I was at physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc.
Which was really sweet and caught me off guard.
I have created so many scenarios in my head about why I should not do Amway, and right when I was going to meet up with my coach to inform him that I wasn’t planning on doing it anymore, I was given an opportunity that would be so stupid to walk away from.
Basically, the company had announced this previous weekend that they are taking care of new independent business owners’ costs of business so people can join and not worry about the money portion for a year.
This is such an amazing opportunity, especially because money really was the main thing holding me back from joining Amway. I took this as a sign that Amway is the direction that I am supposed to head in, and the more I put into that business, the more it will reflect and help out with this business.
I have basically been telling myself that Amway is teaching me everything I need to know about owning a business, while being able to have the love and support of likeminded people doing the same damn thing.
I have also noticed that I have been isolating myself from the world this past month and it was the one thing I said I wasn’t going to do this year lmao.
I just have high hopes for myself and I know the person that I want to become, and I’m embarrassed that I’m not him yet, so I don’t want to show my face until I am. Like I feel like I’m doing false advertising for myself because I’m not where I want to be. Which is so silly as I am typing this out and re-reading it.
I just like growing in private.
But maybe that’s something I have to change going forward.
Actually, nah, that IS something that I am going to have to change going forward.
Today I watched this video on Youtube of Chris Do doing a speech on how to communicate your value and get known (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjIQ-ubJ6JU). Something that stuck out to me in the video was Chris mentioned that we should teach as we learn.
And throughout this whole time of me figuring out how to make my art, make this website, start this business, etc. I haven’t been teaching anyone as I have been doing it (technically).
Today, I got with friend that I used to do business with when I had worked as a Social Media manager, and I showed her some of my art and showed her my website so far. She just graduated, but she already has a year of professional experience so she’s wondering what the next thing for her is. She wants to start her own thing, but she’s figuring it out too. However, today when we got together, it felt nice because it felt like we were figuring it out together.
Which is why I “tecnhncially” haven’t been teaching because I felt like I was leading by example today and to sort of show her what I was doing and let her know that she can do whatever she sets her mind to. She just needs clarity and to make tiny steps in the direction that she wants to head in.
I’m excited though because I know she’s going to figure it out soon.
Talking her today though made me think back to my last blog post about feeling small. And something that weighed on my heart today, was the fact that if I am making myself feel this way, I’m sure that there’s others that do the same damn thing.
So what is something that we can do to sort of get us moving in the right direction? I had the thought of the smallest thing. Meaning that, if you are not currently satisfied with where you are at in life, visualize the type of life that you would like to live, and ask yourself what is the absolute smallest thing you could possibly do to get you moving in the right direction.
And whatever that may be, just continue doing the smallest thing to at least get the ball rolling.
It doesn’t matter how small it is either, progress is progress.
Prior to this website, I did not have a lot of clarity in what direction I wanted to go in and I was too stressed about doing everything perfectly that it stunned me to do nothing.
I shouldn’t say nothing because I have been growing myself up until this point and I am satisfied with the man that I am becoming.
But wanting to do everything perfectly has really set me back from moving forward with my goals and dreams.
That’s okay though because divine timing, baby. Everything is gonna play out when it’s supposed to. Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.
I’m going to leave this blog post a little short because it is 4:31 am and I picked up my parents and grandma from the airport tonight after my Amway meeting so ya boy is beat.
I'‘ll give you some more concepts that I learned from The Art of Focus in my next post because we ain’t done learning!!
Nighty night, love you mucho <3
Love always,
Kyrin.
