Hey 2024, it me.

Damn, I can’t believe it’s been a while since I last wrote last. Sometimes when I miss a day or two of writing, I get overwhelmed when it’s time to write because I feel like so much has happened and I don’t know where to start so I overthink it and then do nothing :)

(yes, the smiley face is sarcasm).

So I’m just going to stop overthinking about it and beating myself up over the fact that I haven’t been consistent with writing on here because there ain’t no good reason to. Just holding onto guilt that is not needed.

I just gotta do better and be better about my decisions. Because that’s basically why I haven’t been consistent with my writing. Which is the silliest thing.

Fortnite has had me by the throat honestly.

I get the itch when I don’t play it :(

But that’s a secret I’ll never tell.

As I haven’t been writing, life has been interesting.

So on the first, I had a meeting with my friend/mentor from Amway and his mentor to go over my finances and what it would look like for me to become an independent business owner.

After the meeting, I had came home to figure out specifics on what I could switch over cosmetics wise so I can start earning money. But as I had gone home to do that, my sister had informed me that we were short on rent..

So she had to do something that she wasn’t proud of in order to have money for rent. Or else our asses were about to get evicted asf.

Thankfully we were able to pivot, but now we still owe the money that we were short and we owe it in a timely manner so ahhh!

And I’m still trying to pay off my other loan for my car that is due by January 31st before it doubles in price.

On top of not getting scheduled a whole lot at work.

So it just doesn’t make sense to join Amway right now. Something is telling me that Amway isn’t the vehicle that is going to get me to where I want to go, but during this chapter in my life, it was extremely beneficial to have had them a part of it.

They want me to continue coming to the meetings but I don’t want to waste their time or money. And I don’t really want to network with them while I’m a server because it just feels like they look down on me for serving since I don’t have something to network with them about.

But still trying to decide if that’s the truth or if that’s just my saboteur talking.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I have to put on a mask for these companies that I work and watch my mouth while my income is in the hands of other people.

Which has made me reflect on how I want to treat this business and what direction would I like to take this in.

My mind keeps going to art and just creating shit.

I just gotta get specific with it so I can head into one direction and stay focused on the tasks that need to get done in order to get myself to where I want to be.

I have big goals that I want to accomplish and I gotta continue working hard.

I told myself that this year I am going to be better about hanging out with people too because I have noticed that I have been getting a lot of inspiration for my art from memories that I make with friends and from friends in general.

So not trying to be as much of a hermit as I was in the past year.

I’ve noticed that I am happier when I hang out with people too. I’m a social lil butterfly.

One of the main reasons why I haven’t hung out with a lot of people and have been keeping to myself is because I haven’t been extremely happy with where I’ve been in life. And because of this, I haven’t been wanting to “catch up” or really talk to anyone because then I would have to talk about what’s going on and I did NOT want that.

So I’ve been keeping to myself and working on everything.

I’ve had my social media apps (except Snapchat) deleted off of my phone since November 22nd, 2023, the day that I had quit my job as a Social Media Manager. And I gotta say, it has been so nice honestly.

Although, I have found myself wanting to download the apps again, I told myself that I can’t redownload them until I have more of this website finished.

And by finished, I mean more of it being a finished product and something to actually be able to advertise and make money from it.

I have noticed that I could make this website and Tampa So Far my business to where I can start seeing money coming in from it and will eventually to get my own studio and make a living off of doing this.

I’m so excited for that day. My silly goose self just needs to figure out what actions I need to do and tasks that I need to accomplish to get me to that point in my life.

Everything that I “don’t have” at the moment is only because I am not the person that I need to be in order to have these things come to fruition in my life.

This is the year that everything is going to start coming together. It has to, legally or else I AM OUT!!!!

Unsubscribing.

Hehe but real talk, it’s time to level up and figure this shit out.

I just figured my 10th journal last night, AND it’s a new year, so all I’m hearing is that it’s a new chapter baby!!

In this next chapter of my life, I want to focus on something that Dan Koe had talked about in one of his recent videos. He talks about luck and states, “Luck is the percentage that increases with the number of people that know your value. There are two lessons here. One, is that you need to become valuable. Two, is that you need to put yourself in front of people. Your life isn’t going anywhere because you are not consistently educating, building, and promoting yourself.”

So this year I am putting myself first and making myself valuable.

What’s your focus on this next season of your life?

Just sumn to think about.

I love you very much and I will see you on the flipside.

Happy 2024 <3