Focus

It’s been eleven days since I have posted last and I will be the first to admit it, that’s sort of tacky asf.

On the contrary though, there’s been a lot going on.

Since we have talked last, things have gotten more serious with the guy that I am seeing. He’s really been taking care of me and has been breaking down a lot of walls down that I have built up.

This past weekend I had gotten really sick with what I believe to be strep throat. So he picked me up from my house and brought me to his where he made me homemade soup, tea, and smoothies to nurture me back to health.

While getting me back to normal, he caught what I had so we have been doing our best to rest and have been sharing medication with each other.

This evening, I had officially told my coach from Amway that I wanted to stop being an independent business owner with Amway. It doesn’t make the most sense because it’s free for a year, but it feels right in my heart. He was super understanding and told me that he liked me outside of business and hopes that we can maintain our friendship still. I was honestly really happy to hear that because I have been dreading telling him that I wasn’t wanting to do business anymore.

To be honest, I have been building it up in my head for the past few days. Constantly thinking about the worst case scenario and getting anxious to have the conversation with him. But once it was all done and over with, it ended up being a great conversation.

But there I go, AS ALWAYS. Building up scenarios in my head and making them worse than what they actually are. My brain does it so well that I think it enjoys doing it. Or maybe that’s all it knows?? Mmmmm… sumn to think about.

I’ve been wanting to quit for a while because I didn’t feel like I was doing it for me. I was doing it because everyone that I was in business with was telling me that it was a great idea and it felt good to get accepted by like-minded individuals.

However, I’m really happy that I had met everyone through Amway though because they taught me the last thing I needed to really hone in on what it is that I truly desire in this world.

For so long I have been putting my art aside and even when I first quit my marketing job, I told myself that during this time of me serving, I was going to focus on my art and everything that I always “come back to” saying that it is that I want to do.

I don’t want anymore back up plans, I don’t want anymore distractions, it’s time to sit down and get serious about all of these things that I have been talking about since November and since forever!

I’ve been meeting with friend of that I used to do business with when I was in my previous marketing job because we have similar goals that we are working towards and it’s been nice bouncing ideas off of one another.

We met today and the next step in this process for me to actually get my art out there. I have made prints that I have had the intent of taking to local coffee shops to sell and to the spiritual campus that I go to, but I’ve been too distracted honestly. However, this is a new chapter and I’m excited for the things to come.

In March, The Factory St. Pete is hosting a Florida-themed gallery that local artists can submit their work in. The deadline is March 5th, so ya boy has got some work to do. I’ve created a few digital pieces already, but I kind of want to dive into physical art to see what I can make to get creative. So stay tuned.

This is a random transition, but I had just thought about how I haven’t wrote about my highlights from chapter two of The Art of Focus by Dan Koe (the book that I am currently reading) so let’s get to it, shall we? Hehe.

Chapter Two: The 3 Pillars

• “Every successful person- by any standard, even if that version of success means rejecting the world and living a life of peace in the woods- knows that focus is the catalyst to a good life.”- Dan Koe asf

• The three pillars in this chapter are,

  • 1. Focus

  • 2. Energy

  • 3. Experience

• For the first pillar, Focus:

  • the gist of what I picked up is that our perspectives can really limit us to what we can see and understand in any given circumstance. Our focus will limit us to whatever reality that our perspective allows. The only way to break this is to create goals that launch us into the unknown. Because that is where all of our growth happens, in the unknown.

  • Overtime, our focus compounds (just like mf interest).

I didn’t want to fully quote this next paragraph but it’s too juicy not to:

• “When you start, your survival needs will consume your attention until you solve the right problems in that domain. As you solve your money problems, you gain a bit more freedom. Your focus may shift to self-development, spirituality, or creating a more meaningful career. In business, your focus will shift priority during every stage. Beginner, intermediate, and advanced.” - Dan Koe (Once again, hehe).

This really stuck with me because I feel like I am on the verge of solving the right problems to really get me out of fucking struggling financially all the time.

I’m a hard worker and I absolutely love to work, yet my wallet would beg to differ.

• Dan finishes this section of the pillar talking about how if we are able to really hone in on our focus, we will get the clarity that we have been searching for for so long and will begin to flow with the cyclical nature of the Universe, cute, right?

• For the second pillar, Energy:

  • Some of my main takeaways were that in order to invest in our mental health and energy, it is important that we give energy to four domains in our lives, which are health, wealth, relationships, and happiness. Giving energy to these four domains will promote our mental energy throughout our lives. And over time, collective mental energy is what creates modern power.

  • This part stuck out to me because I’ve noticed that when I don’t give energy to those four domains of my life, I seem to be lacking in another aspect that stems from not giving attention and energy to my health, wealth, relationships, and happiness.

  • The end goal over all of this is to have complete control on where we are giving our focus to, which we do by achieving goals, gaining more efficiency in our lives, and solving better problems.

• The third pillar, Experience:

  • “When we pull from our experiences to know what we don’t want, gain clarity on what we want, and construct a personal hiearchy of goals to frame our focus, the potential for life enjoyment increases dramatically”- Mr. Dan Koe his mf self

  • This quote stuck out to me because I feel like it’s ironically sort of what this blog post is about.

  • I tried Amway for a while because I wanted to see if it was for me, even though deep down I know that it wasn’t. But it was one of those things that you have to figure out on your own. And now that I have decided to switch my focus on the things that I truly want, I am hoping that the potential for my life enjoyment will increase dramatically as well.

  • Dan states that when you start to switching your focus might be slow because we are learning how to solve our own problems. BUT if we continue to keep solving our own problems, a positive future is bound to happen eventually.

  • One of the best things we can do for ourselves is to learn what problems in our life are making our life less enjoyable and seeking ways to understand how we can solve those problems. When we learn how to do that, it is important to remember how to fix those problems forever and going forward, falling in love with the process of doing so.

  • In life, success in every aspects of our lives is based on solving a never-ending array of problems. But overtime, we get better and better. Das what life is all about. Or so they say.

There’s one more segment in this chapter called The Human Condition but I will go over that in the next post because it is 1:05am and ya boy is T I R E D.

If you are reading this, I hope you found something valuable to takeaway from while i type out my silly little thoughts on this keyboard.

I’m heading to bed and I hope you have a marvelous night.

Bueanas noches bitchachos.

Love always,

Kyrin.