January’s End

Every first day of the month for the past few years, I have done a Tarot reading to see what the theme of that month is going to be. I don’t know if I necessarily believe in the cards, but the readings always seem to point me in the right direction in becoming the highest version of myself. They also sort of remind me of in depth fortune cookies. Minus the cookies unfortunately :/

I don’t know if I wrote about what my reading was for this month, but it was the Magician for January 2024.

I use Biddy Tarot (https://biddytarot.com/) for all of my readings and they seem to be pretty spot on with what is going on in my life at that given time. But this is what it had said about the Magician (AKA my theme for January):

The Magician:

“As a master manifestor, The Magician brings you the tools, resources and energy you need to make your dreams come true. Seriously, everything you need right now is at your fingertips. You have the spiritual (fire), physical (earth), mental (air) and emotional (water) resources to manifest your desires. And when you combine them with the energy of the spiritual and earthly realms, you will become a manifestation powerhouse! The key is to bring these tools together synergistically so that the impact of what you create is greater than the separate parts. This is alchemy at its best!

Now is the perfect time to move forward on an idea that you recently conceived. The seed of potential has sprouted, and you are being called to take action and bring your intention to fruition. The skills, knowledge and capabilities you have gathered along your life path have led you to where you are now, and whether or not you know it, you are ready to turn your ideas into reality.

In your quest to manifest your goals, you must establish a clear vision of what you will create (and why) before you act. It is not enough to be motivated by ego (money, status, or fame) – you need to have a soul connection to your goals and intentions. You are a powerful, creative being, and this is your opportunity to bring your Higher Self in alignment with your day-to-day actions to create the future you want most.

When you are clear about your ‘what’ and your ‘why’, The Magician calls on you to take inspired action. You will need focused attention and intense concentration to bring your goals to fruition. Focus on the ONE thing that will move you towards your goal. Commitment to the task is essential, so drop any distractions that may draw your focus away from what you want to achieve. Be methodical in your planning to make sure that you stay on track and carry out your tasks.”

That being said, this past month has been an absolute game changer for the trajectory of my life.

This past month I have really dove into digital art and teaching myself how to grow my business and my website.

This past weekend was sort of like a checkpoint for me. With my parents being in town, I got to show them everything that is coming to fruition in my life. We ended up going to a nondemoniational Christian church this previous Sunday and my parents got to meet many of the people that I do business with in Amway.

I ALSO officially started Amway last night and ya boy is an Independent Business Owner (IBO). So let’s fucking goooo!!!!!

I’m still trying to grasp my head around what that means and everything that I can do, but I have a good feeling that sky is the limit.

I have been hesitant about Amway for a while, but I feel myself getting pulled into this direction, and so I am listening to the wind and running with it.

Another thing that’s been on my mind when it comes to Amway is something one of my favorite college professors (Mr.C) from Appalachian State University had taught me in his marketing class. He stated, “your skills are portable.”

Diving deeper into that, when we are searching for jobs, it is important to remember that it may not be the specific job that we necessarily want, but be open minded to the fact that the jobs that we are searching for, could allow us to obtain the skillset that we want for that one job that we do want later down the road.

This has stuck a lot with me because I have been so focused on this website, and my art, and what I want to accomplish.

But to be honest, doing this shit all on your own is extremely difficult.

And Amway has sort of just fallen in my lap, but the whole company is filled with people that just want to see people succeed. And they will do whatever they can to back you up. So it just seems like whatever my journey with Amway is about to look like, I am going to be able to tie in everything that I learn to tie in with this business and with my art.

Also, I don’t remember if I had mentioned this or not in my previous blog posts, but I low key went on a few dates this month as well.

The dates went well, and the guy is super cool. He’s in his 30s, bartends, owns his own social media management business, and is wanting us to join forces and become a powerhouse together.

This sounded awesome, but it seemed a little intense for me at the beginning of this month because I have just been so focused on creating this up, and my wallet is almost empty at the moment so getting into a relationship right now is not in the cards. Or I should say “was” not in the cards.

He messaged me last week and asked if I could work with him yesterday, January 29th, for a new client that he had just gotten. So he now makes content for a local gym now and I was able to help out and get some content for them and for his instagram (he has a good following).

Yesterday went so well, I found myself questioning why I was holding my feelings for him, and I realized that I have low key forgot how to love.

Love in the sense of how I give love.

My last relationship, I had to mold myself into something that I wasn’t, and had to refrain how I loved because my partner had different love languages, so I tried to adapt and change myself to make me fit the way that he wanted me to in his life.

Doing this for so long though, I sort of lost myself. I turned off certain parts of my brain and tried to be everything that he wanted in a partner, and ultimately I got lost in the process and neither of us liked who I was at the time.

I also get heavily influenced by love and find myself putting love over anything and everything. Or at least that’s what I did in the past, and I really don’t want to repeat that again.

I really like the person that I am becoming and I don’t want that to change because of anyone.

I even tried telling the guy that I’ve been going on dates with that I want some space because we were moving too fast for me to keep up and I was getting overwhelmed. Which was true, but to be honest, I realized I have just been scared to open my heart back up again after all the healing that I have done this past two years.

So after how well yesterday went, we have been talking about working together so we can bring more income in for the both of us.

Ultimately two business opportunities in the same mf day right before this month is about to end.

I also have this app called The Pattern or some shit like that, idk, i don’t have my phone by me at the moment, but I woke up to a notification from the app saying,

“Timing Update: January 30, 2024

Congratulations- you’ve just completed a potentially confusing time period in your life. Over the last nineteen months, your identity was meant to change- bit this process could have felt like it was slowing you down or distracting you from practical or material matters. Although you may have felt lost, ideally you’ve now gained a fresh perspective on life that can serve you well. Moving forward, things will start to become more clearer.”

When I read this, I was like, “ummm… okay that’s weird.” Because like what??

How ironic is that timing.

The universe works in mysterious ways, however, my gut is telling me that I am on the right track. Whatever that means.

Going off of that though, I would like to finally finish Chapter one in The Art of Focus so we can finally dive into the juicy stuff. So leggo.

• Ego Development

  • We often hear about how our ego is bad and how we should strip away from it as much as possible, but Dan suggests that instead, we find a way to develop our ego to the point of being at one with reality.

  • When we are able to to develop our ego to the point at being at one with reality, we will be able to transcend and include. Allowing our ego to navigate through the relative world while still being grounded with who we are and the Universe.

  • I don’t know about you, but this resonates with me because throughout my self-improvement journey, I have been trying to rid myself of my ego, but I have found that the stronger that I fight with my desires and trying to control them, the more they want to run wild and free. But when I accept my ego and acknowledge my ego/desires without falling into temptation and rather shifting that energy into something else more beneficial, I have found myself transcending into the man that I want to become. If that makes sense?

• Level of Mind

  • Every problem that we have faced since we have been alive has given us the opportunity to increase our level of mind. It’s like anytime we overcome something, we gain exp. like in a video game. I mention this a lot but it really feels like a video game!

  • Dan states, “You must shed your attachment to expectations, concepts, and beliefs that prevent you from perceiving any situation for what it is. When you can perceive a situation for what it is, you can acquire the skill necessary to match the challenge that a problem presents.”

  • I relate to this because any time I am able to let go of my expectations for how I feel like a situation should be, I find myself able to learn and grow in the ways that I need to overcome whatever obstacle is being placed in front of me at the given moment.

• Conceptual Survival

  • I will be honest, I don’t really understand this concept or where Dan is going to tie this concept with later on in the book but basically our brains are designed to want to reproduce and survive. Everything we do revolves around those two things.

  • Our self is the build up of concepts that we have learned and adapted to over time and many of our decisions that we make are taken to survive our identity.

• Mastery Over Misery

  • This concept is juicy.

  • With this one, basically we to become a master of something, it is important to fall in love with the little trainings and techniques that will eventually turn you into a master of whatever it is that you are trying to craft

  • Basically it’s about building reps

  • The more reps you build, the more you become a master at whatever skill you are building

• Tactical Stress

  • This concept is also juicy, my mouth dropped a little when I read it from the book. But basically Tactical Stress is making the decision to breakaway from our routine and daily habits to put ourself in an uncomfortable situation that will allow us to grow and show us that fear is the only thing from stopping us from leveling up

  • “Make the decision that requires you to finally execute reaching your next stage of evolution.”- Dan Koe

• Selfishness as a Priority

  • Many people have negative beliefs surrounding selfishness. But Dan suggests that we open our minds to re-program our brains into understanding that selfishness is in fact, extremely healthy and extremely crucial for our growth.

  • Self-education, self-experimentation, self-control, self-employment, self-reflection, self-awareness, self-reliance, and self-management are all traits revolving around selfishness that we ought to have a pursuit in because mastering all of these traits will allow us to become versions of ourselves that we wouldn’t even recognize (in a good way).

And that my friends concludes the first chapter of The Art of Focus. I hope there was something in this post that was beneficial for you. If you are still reading this, thank you thank you thank you.

I genuinely appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read my silly thoughts.

I have to go be an independent business owner, so let’s chat later, hehe.

Xoxo, and as always, see you on the flip side :)

Love, Kyrin.